15 more hours to go before the competition, and I am here busy writing in my blog! SHOCK! since last night, I cannot contain my emotions! I was crying over my happiness, I am excited, anxious at the same time nervous! GAAAAHHH?!!! Through our 3 month long practice and preparations we will be only showing it in a 3 minute performance our passion, our love, our drive and our commitment! It has been a great challenge! Proud Cheer Captain here!! - 1011 WIZAAAAAAAAAARDS!!!!!
Goodbye Pompadour!
I decided to take my pompadour hairstyle to a rest. So I go back to the basics with my one sided bangs. Actually I was planning to get a crew cut but I got scared + doubtful. It is not that I don’t like pompadours anymore, it is just that I got too tired in maintaining it + at the end of the day my hair will dry up and it will become frisky. So I tried to play it safe for tomorrow will be the start of my On-the-Job Training because during the days of this summer, some of us trainees are required to wear corporate or formal attire and I am one of those. I need to look good and be presentable because this is a big company. And someday who knows, if they will like my work ethics + my personality maybe they will absorb me after I graduate if and only if I will be still willing to work with them, we’ll see.
Under the same sky, at different places
I’m singing my blues from the dead daisies
It is killed, it is rotten
And all my hopes are already in heaven.
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Dissociating
Here I am knocking the door
Complaining for what I am here for
Trying to escape
Trying to run
The stress and trauma under the sun
This not what I wanted this is not even right
And I always thought I was living in a dark paradise.
I alter myself during my sleep
And in days I create my own reality
Almost all the times I am sick
Failing for what I am supposed to be.
I have a feeling my life is over
I run and avoid circumstances where I suffer
I don’t want to do this
I want to be slapped
I am better than this
But I always feel flat.
-jmL X[[
“A Young Traveler’s Poem”
Waves are too big
I’m keeping up my balance
I’m back on the sea
Bound for another land
In this boundless horizon
And unknown space
Imagination is what you hear
And it speaks faith
Just a stanza
And I am waves away from home
Bound for my future
Travelling alone.
Three hours after
And I’m back on land
It’s the second stanza
While driving thru sands
A road to my dreams
Road to a new city
The distance of my dreams
Are half away from my reality
I am at the back seat
With these unknown people
Long way to go
The highway is my control.
I left the big city
In this cold night
I am docking with these people I am aligned
The sea is dark
The moon is the only light
Off for that final city
Third stanza
I’m walking to my station
Life jackets are everywhere
And faith is my reaction.
I woke up in this rented bed
It’s freezing cold
It bothers my head
I walk thru hallways
With my messy hair
The sun has risen
The beauty that it bears
I have arrived to my reality
The last stanza where I think I am free.
-jmL X[[
Morning cam-whoring.. *Letters for Christmas && Christmas wrapping ep2! XD
